okay. so now i'm trying out posterous, hopefully i don't give up halfway again. well, wanted to try this 'cause i heard ya don't need to search and do lots of blogskin stuff, which is awesome; for lazy people like me.

so erm.. here are some updates of me:

I've finished watching episode 428 of one piece, and currently waiting for more episodes to come out. While 'waiting' , i'm currently once again addicted to supernatural, a show of.. well, un-natural beings. Oh, and I am so in love with luffy and sam winchester.

I'm going taiwan on tuesday, which is kinda fast 'cause i've haven't done a thing. great.

I haven't touched anything related to school :

1. I haven't done ss project.

2. I haven't done the heavy load of freaking chinese stuff.

3. I haven't studied ANYTHING.

awesome.

the worse part is, I DON'T FEEL LIKE DOING ANYTHING.

So im just gonna waste some time here talking about random stuffs related to me while i wait for supernatural to load. So yea, get ready to freak out.

here goes :

 

If monsters truly existed, I think humans are a lot scarier.

I think a man who gives " I'm sorry, I just couldn't control myself /these are human desires/it's a natural thing to do" as an excuse for cheating on his wife is unforgiveable.

If i used one word to describe myself, it would be curious. NOT emo.

I honestly believe, " a man who knew everything, didn't understood a thing".

I don't like people judging me, or act as if they understood me. I'd rather them be clueless.

I get bored easily.

I own in reversi.

One emotion i really lack in is not happiness, but rather, empathy; I can't seem to feel sad for people.

I love blue. But i hate pink. I really do.

I like robin of teen titans, danny of danny phantom, jerry of tom and jerry, ash of pokemon, luffy of one piece, hitsugaya of bleach, tsuna of hitman reborn [even though i hate his voice], sam of supernatural, ben of ben 10 [i like the grown-up ben], liam aiken, jeremy sumpter, jasper and edward of twilight, darren of darren shan, harry of harry potter,casper of casper the friendly ghost, shaggy of scooby doo +++++++++

i think i probably like everything i don't hate. hmm...

i have flu every single morning.

i think supernatural is done loading.

ciaossu. [ciao + ossu]

 

Posted via web from city of boredom

i think..
i've fallen in love, again.
and its someone stupid, again.
someone who'll never like me back, again.

they all say its better to have loved and lost, than not loved at all...
i say if i could, i rather not have this thing called affection/love/like/whatever at all...

but i cant do anything about it.
just in self-denial that i do not like him at all.

yup. i dont like him at all.



if you're going to come and not come;
i rather you not come at all.
fool.
i mean me.

PLEASE let me pass my a maths! PLEASE T_T
I'd never tried so hard to pass my whole life T_T

im so loving one piece's song.
replayed for like... 100 times? hahas.

This is the english version below, though it's sang in jap :
I
'll keep believing in the future, not caring if anyone laughs at me
The passion running within you makes you shine
It's too dazzling, but I want to keep watching you
Somehow, sensing those aesthetics makes me really really stuck on you

Chasing, chasing after the one in my dreams
That is like no one else
With a feeling that burns like it's kindling the dawn
I don't know yet what the consequences will be
Instead of these boring times, it's gotta be dramatic
Until we achieve that, believe in wonderland!

Under casual rules, we've avoided a mountain of problems
But because of your pride, you can't turn back down this road
On your weak nights when troubles keep coming
I will hold you tight, I wanna wanna be with you

Holding on, we keep holding on
To a dream that no one else can see
Because I'm with you, we have such hot feelings
We don't really need consistency
Instead of a mundane routine,
Run towards paradise and believe in wonderland!

Chasing, chasing after the one in my dreams
That is like no one else
With a feeling that burns like it's kindling the dawn
I don't know yet what the consequences will be
Instead of these boring times, it's gotta be dramatic
Until we achieve that, believe in wonderland!

Trying to fix my ear piece so I could play it in my phone~~

The little puppet walked as fast as she could.
After she went home she opened the closet door and stared at the mirror.
She looked at herself,
and she started crying.
Crying and crying, as she cuddled in a corner.
But she was still crying.
And she cried until her body turned icy; until her head hurts like crazy; until her eyes turned sore.

She had no idea what was wrong, all she knows is that she's weak.
But it was not their fault. All they talked about and laughed about might be the truth.
It was her own fault.
She was too ugly.
That's why her new hairstyle made her look funny,
because she was ugly.

She thought she'll look better with the haircut, because her family said her eyes are pretty.
Her cousin thought the haircut was cute. Her mum thought it was nice.
And she went out with confidence, but came back with shame.
Good words are all lies.

She never thought she was pretty, but she thought she was 'okay'.
But now she knows she's ugly. And it all made sense.
Because only ugly people get laughed at.
Because only ugly people get bullied.
Because only ugly people have no one to love.
Because beautiful people are loved.
Because beautiful people have nice friends.
Because beautiful people can smile brightly.
Because beautiful people get to be bullies.
Because beautiful people don't have to care what others feel.
Because beautiful people are right, and ugly people are wrong.
Because ugly people look ugly.

Its enough for her little puppet heart. '
To think she even had a good dream this morning. Which was super rare.
But they are all lies.

Kinda interesting how a cool person sounds really cool when calling your name for the first time @.@

Like those people beside you always call your name so you don't feel any different, but when someone who normally don't talk to you calls your name, it feels really interesting.

I'll be like , " OMG DID HE JUST CALL ME " lol. You dont have to like the person to feel funny o.o, its just really weird ~

Maybe it felt like I was accepted as an individual or smth, like 'I EXIST'! LOL. Or like i'm recognized.

What a nice feeling, haha.
Kinda feels that i'm finally making friends. Even though i'm like already sec 3...

Finally eng and chi paper over. I am like so stressed i dunno why. And I finally studied chinese; I know like 30+ words, BUT ONLY 2 COME OUT. WTH.
TT my life is sad.

But at least I was saved by god a minute before the paper was collected. Haha hard to explain here but I was like basically praying and the word appeared in my eyes. LITERALLY APPEARED ON THE PAPER. AND I was like clinching my fist and 'YES!'. lol lol


OH AND IMMA SO INTO ONE PIECE. HAHA RENGE *sticks out tongue* :p

OH OH, AND IM VERY ADDICTED TO A MANGA, CAUSE THE GUY IS DRAWN SO BEAUTIFULLY, ITS BASICALLY A PIECE OF ART! * Sparkling eyes* I CANT TAKE MY EYES OFF HIM! T-T

HA, eating my favorite tidbit with dried seaweed + cheese and other weird stuff,
plus drinking iced tea and watching computer now,
AND tml is the last day of school!
Woo! BANZAI!

[tho' that means i really SHOULD start studying] =="
lol but i dont care HAHA

i've got flowers of blissful-ness around me~
Hahaha~ I'm not gonna tell you why ~
*Sparkling eyes*
Ah~h i'm gonna melt away~~

Actually i'm just getting excited all by myself, not that smth really good happened or smth dramatic happened to my life, just smth really small and insignificiant to others, but it was good enough for me. WAHAHAHA ~
If only everyday were like today, maybe I could like school, just a little :3

..but i-i think, too much of that might be bad for my heart... I was so nervous I couldn't breathe properly =="

I think if THAT happened instead, I'll probably just faint~
But its still nice :DD

shhh...dont telll anyone :D

I love ikuto and tadase <3 LOL LOL
Ikuto is the first three pictures. He's the cool, hot, quiet and naughty guy :D [and and I love his violin! VIOLINS ARE DE BEST ]

Tadase is the last three pictures. He's cute, nice, kind and prince-like character :D [oh and I love his character change, where he changes to an arrogant, funny king that yearns for world dormination! HA same as me. THANKS THANKS ><]

I like them both. HAHA.
not sure why, but I like extreme people, as in either very dark people, or very sparkly and bright people.

PS: And Rima is freaking funny
"Basugasubakuhatsu" < try reading this really really fast'

HAHA

48:
tadase as a prince detective:
Your heart, I'll arrest it.

And I was like
" ARREST ME!!"
HAHA prince fan girl :D

what the hell am I to you?

Mum, tell me.
Last time it used to be sis and me, I was second, but at least I was noticed.
Then sis started to have bfs. And breakups. And o'levels. Your focus is on her, but it doesn't matter, because I'm third now [ sis and her bf is first and second] , but at least, sometimes, SOMETIMES, you still talk about me, touch my head, and talk good things about me.

Then now there's my godbrother. YOUR godson. Now i'm 4th. AND YOU TOTALLY DONT TALK ABOUT ME AT ALL. This morning I went down to have breakfast with my mum and sis, and they kept talking. About work, sis, sis's bf, mum herself, and the godson.
Nothing about me.

I sat there at the side listening to them talk. Waiting for them to talk about me, but all mum said about me was negative. Like I have NO good points at all. My heart hurts and I wanna cry but I didn't show. I told myself its alright... BUT ITS NOT.

I tried to talk, and I really did, 3 times in fact. But none of them noticed. Like I was not there... So I talked to myself. And they didn't noticed either.

I'm a human too. No matter how cold I am or how hard I try to be emotionless, I am human. So it hurts like shit. What am I to you mum? Am I so bad? What did I do wrong? Times like these, I wished I was a robot.

You always tell me its because of computer that I can't communicate. You're wrong. Because you never try. I don't shut myself in my own world... I open up, but you guys don't listen. So I close the door slightly. And you guys don't notice either, So i shut off completely.

I wonder which one's more cold. The rain outside, or my house. It used to be so warm, so nice... Like everytime I come home there's people to welcome me.

Now its just stone cold. Dead silent. Heartless.
And even when you do talk about me, its all about how I don't off computer, or my results. [that are not even bad]

I wanted to go to the market with you two just now. But I couldn't bear it. My heart's not that strong. The more I think about it, the more inferior I think of myself. Am I not worth your attention at all? Its not like I seek attention, but mum gives me NO attention at all. She would say all about her godson's good points [ when he is a gangster] , but all she finds on me are the bad points [ when i'm supposed to be better]. I don't get it.

If this is love, I DON'T WANT IT.