We walked past each other like complete strangers.. Werent you the one that wanted to be friends badly? ...now you dont even wanna look at me.. Pain..

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sorry i lied. 

but i can only love you for so long..

 

 

i wanna be your friend too.

maybe not your best friend but.. a good one?

 

sorry..

please don't be cold to me anymore..

i can only love you for so long..

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and after I give you the present sealed with love.."

i wanted to tell you..

that I want you to remember this moment...

i will look into your eyes deeply and ask you to close your eyes..

and I will whisper,

 

beebee, ...... byebye.

 

 

and when you open your eyes,

i'll vanish entirely.

 

 

 

this time for sure... i can be the cool person i keep trying to be..

I really wish I could let go of you too. I wish I could be strong. I wish I could stop harrassing you..

that time for sure..

I will be.

 

If you could see this, can you prepare yourself?

As in.. can you prepare to tell me? I really really wanna hear you say all those nice stuff again.. I really really need to hear them again.. I really wanna feel like I matter..

 

Will you miss me? When im really gone?

 

I wont force you to say that you love me, that you really missed me this nearly 2 weeks, that you wanted to tell me and msg me but you didnt.. that you think about me, that you care about me, that I mean so much to you. that you couldnt bear for me to go but you have to. that it is painful for you too..

I wont force you.. but I really wish to hear it.. I really really do...
Please don't force yourself if you cant..

Because I like the truthful you :') My honest snail dino :))

 

Because I really love you. Thats why im making all this fuss..., because... only by doing these my heart will really seal.. and by doing what I really really wanna do and say to you, I will really really give you up.

I love you thats why Im trying my best to let you go.. so please, don't ever say that im just doing what I want.. because what i want is probably harrass you forever..

I don't want that... thats why I'm doing all these things so that I can let go...

Its like suicide. I might seem like im doing all these for myself.. but no.. i'm doing it for you. I don't want to harrass you and hurt you anymore. Because I will. Look at me now. I can't survive a day without msging you. So now by doing all these its like attempting suicide..

Do you understand why I have to do it now? Idk I can't explain but.. ya.. it was never intended the way you thought.. you assumed wrongly too..

wow btw when i say "Idk I can't explain but.. ya." I sound like you! hahah!

I wish you could hold me in your arms and tell me all the sweet stuff you have once said.. that will be the final and best dream.. or even just a "bee, i will never be able to forget you" will be enough.. atakai... :) (blissful smile)

Hold me. Till the sun sets and we part our separate ways, with only our footsteps to prove that we were once there. Along with the smiles and tears we shed along the way..

I love you. more than i can ever say.. more than i can ever show.. more than anything else. i love you so much that i'm willing to risk myself, to let you enjoy the happiness you deserve. i'm stupid, but proud to be :) at least, i loved someone so much more than i imagined i could. and he too, did loved me more than he ever did.

baby, hold me cuz before you notice, i'll be gone without a trace.

Please, take my love away. Treasure them. I think you will find them quite useful along the painful thorns of life..

 

and after I give you the present sealed with love.."

i wanted to tell you..

that I want you to remember this moment...

i will look into your eyes deeply and ask you to close your eyes..

and I will whisper,

 

beebee, ...... byebye.

 

 

and when you open your eyes,

i'll vanish entirely.

 

Because, this time.. for sure.

It'll be the last.

Ti Amo..

 

 

 

 

 

 

Until we meet again,
Adios.

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What am i supposed to say when the best part of me is always you.

 

Wanna know something?

Loving you is the Second Best thing I ever did..

.
..
...
Because..

Finding you is the First. :)

 

Eunice told me today that actually a lot of people told her that you and me look compatible with each other. Like we got the couple look and we look very sweet together..  She say she thought that way too and still doesnt get why we have to break up, it makes no sense at all..

yea, idk why either...

why..?

 

I miss you.. didn't msg you much today.. I miss you so much...
do you miss me too? I feel terrible, with wr with everything. I can't do anything.. I fail in everything... Love family school.. :(

Are you worried about me slightly?

"People always think that when you sleep together, there’s always something that is happening in between the sheets and the bed. But let me tell you, It’s not always like that. The feeling of actually hugging each other until you fall asleep, the warmth of each other’s breath, and the total happiness in the morning when you wake up right beside them. Everything may sound so good to be true, but sometimes it takes a lot of responsibility and love to be able to be as wholesome as possible. Sleeping with your special someone is one of the most heartwarming experiences you’ll ever have. No nothing, simply hugging and smiling yourself to sleep."

What happened bee.. :( I love you.... you used to love me so much too.. so much...
just what is love? isnt it supposed to be simple? I think about you all the time, i wonder what you do, i miss you etc? ... :'( today is really an awful day for me.. I ran away from the classroom and hid in one corner and cried.......

then i called you...

 

 

 

 

Something to let you smile :)

Its so hard to pretend I dont care because I think about you 24/7...
I ate utah today and I wanted to bring it to you so much :((
I miss buying and sharing food with you and seeing your happy face.. Everyone says we look so sweet together...

I really miss you... can you tell me you do too? ..

 

 

This dinosaur is nearly extinct.. gonna disappear from your world soon.. after giving you the presents..

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不要期待 就不会失望

不要问 你不想知道的答案

要装 不知道 真的好难好难。

很开心

可是开心到，好怕。

原来 孤单寂寞 是这么可怕的。

原来 我这么 害怕你离开。。

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Haven't been here for the longest time.
In this duration I have fallen in love, almost fell out, and now half half and confused.
I wish I won't fall out though.
I wish he'll still want me in the end.
Really hurt me when he said
" I can't see a future with you "
Well, guess in some ways he was right.
My temper and attitude is untoleratable.
Like my sis said, i'm changing.
But not fast or good enough.
I'm taking small turtle steps, which is slow and not useful.

So now i'm trying my best to leap as a hare.
And I really hope you stay
because my world's a better place when you are around.

Really like this btw,
"The truth in love is that you are bound to get hurt, you just have to figure out who is worth the pain. However pain is never a reason to let go, because love without pain is just a game."
thats right.
Don't be afraid of the pain.
Don't be afraid of getting hurt.
Because without pain love is just a game.
I swear I won't let you get hurt again.
I swear I won't hurt you again.
I swear that everything I did or done that hurt you wasn't intended.
And I'll be there to catch you protect you and love you.

Maybe one reason why I refused to let you go,
isn't because i'm selfish and I don't want you to be happy.
More like I still think I can make you happy,
and i'm very afraid that the girl after me will be worse than me.
Yes I have flaws and problems,
but one thing's for sure, my love ain't replaceable.
Its hard to find someone out there that loves you the way I do
With all my heart. I really do.
Someone who doesn't love you cherish you or treasure you
don't deserve you.
But if one day you really found someone who loves you more and is better than me,
... I'll let you go.
With a smile in my face :')
I will.
Because I am sure you'll be happy.
Until then.. please stay. And let me shower you with love..
Love that a guy like you deserve..
You have been hurt too much, let me share your burden.
Please.

If only you could be me for one day,
then you will know how much you matter to me.
And still do.
Thought I'll never love someone like this,
but i did. And it hurts.
Hell it hurts.
But if it disappears, it'll hurt tons more. And more.

Baby I love you not because I need you
but I need you because I love you.

If only by someway somehow you knew how I feel.
If only.

I love you.

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love you and just you.
I don’t mind what others say or think
I just wanna be with you

So please
If you love me too,
if you can’t bear to leave too,
please stay by my side
and leave our past behind.

Because I love you more than I can say
and I need you more than I can imagine.

Please don’t go.
Lets just love each other
and don’t complicate things
Just the both of us
Simple and free

Maybe there is no such thing as forever
but at least we can be together for a long long time

The future’s too far to see
who knows what might happen tomorrow
So lets just think about now
just cherish and hold me now
Because I love you and you love me.

- To my dearest love.
I love you
My dear beebee

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i'm sorry

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So yea, today suddenly went to research again on my personality, INTP.

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  Quite interesting actually, from personalitypage.com
  So yea, as an INTP, i'm a thinker :D
  Here are some interesting stuffs abt me :
  
  Strengths
• Generally laid-back and easy-going, willing to defer to their mates
• Approach things which interest them very enthusiastically
• Richly imaginative and creative
• Do not feel personally threatened by conflict or criticism
• Usually are not demanding, with simple daily needs

Weakness

 

 

• Not naturally in tune with others' feelings; slow to respond to emotional needs
• Not naturally good at expressing their own feelings and emotions
• Tend to be suspicious and distrusting of others
• Not usually good at practical matters, such as money management, unless their work involves these concerns
• They have difficulty leaving bad relationships
• Tend to "blow off" conflict situations by ignoring them, or else they "blow up" in heated anger

INTPs generally have the following traits:

• Love theory and abstract ideas
• Truth Seekers - they want to understand things by analyzing underlying principles and structures
• Value knowledge and competence above all else
• Have very high standards for performance, which they apply to themselves
• Independent and original, possibly eccentric
• Work best alone, and value autonomy
• Have no desire to lead or follow
• Dislike mundane detail
• Not particularly interested in the practical application of their work
• Creative and insightful
• Future-oriented
• Usually brilliant and ingenius
• Trust their own insights and opinions above others
• Live primarily inside their own minds, and may appear to be detached and uninvolved with other people

Possible Career Paths for the INTP:

• Scientists - especially Physics, Chemistry
• Photographers
• Strategic Planners
• Mathematicians
• University Professors
• Computer Programmers, Systems Analysts, Computer Animation and Computer Specialists
• Technical Writers
• Engineers
• Lawyers / Attorneys
• Judges
• Forensic Research
• Forestry and Park Rangers

INTP Relationships

 

INTPs live rich worlds inside their minds, which are full of imagination and excitement. Consequently, they sometimes find the external world pales in comparison. This may result in a lack of motivation to form and maintain relationships. INTPs are not likely to have a very large circle of significant relationships in their lives. They're much more likely to have a few very close relationships, which they hold in great esteem and with great affection. Since the INTP's primary focus and attention is turned inwards, aimed towards seeking clarity from abstract ideas, they are not naturally tuned into others' emotional feelings and needs. They tend to be difficult to get to know well, and hold back parts of themselves until the other person has proven themselves "worthy" of hearing the INTP's thoughts. Holding Knowledge and Brain Power above all else in importance, the INTP will choose to be around people who they consider to be intelligent. Once the INTP has committed themself to a relationship, they tend to be very faithful and loyal, and form affectionate attachments which are pure and straight-forward. The INTP has no interest or understanding of game-playing with regards to relationships. However, if something happens which the INTP considers irreconciliable, they will leave the relationship and not look back.

CIAOSSU! BYE! :D

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Gemini:
Your heart is going pitter-pat, Gemini, and you're tempted to escape into a romantic fantasyland in which you play the starring role. The bad news is that something may be trying to hold you back today. It could be that your conscience is coming on the scene to remind you that work needs to be done before you can go off into your own little fairytale world.

What needs to be done? So that my conscience is free?

Adios, guilty.

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