I can't believe it.
I've finally caught up to his shadow.
Unlike previously, this time, i'm not letting go.
I'm not giving him the chance to escape, and for me to run away.
I don't want to run away anymore. Some things need to be said, before its all to late.

If we were strangers, then it'll be okay. i'll forgive you. But we're family. And because of that, i expected more, and for you to notice. Also for you to realise, you don't know anything about me. But, who would have thought, i even need to use fake smiles at home. My feelings, can't they reach you? You only thought about how you felt...
what about me?
the worse. the worse kind of human in this world. All adults are the same.
All i've ever wanted, was for you to say "welcome back", when i come home, and for me to answer,
" i'm back."

I wonder, is it too much to ask?
I've had enough. No more.

well, all I can say about my results is... PHEW.
And GOD LOVES ME. LOL. Well, the highest score in mathematics came from our class, with the awesome score of 99/100 =.= LOL. He actually got full marks for paper one. Even teachers thought it was crazy and checked his paper many many times... For me, THANK GOD I scored 51. LOL YAY I PASSED. Like it wasn't my fault, cause many people failed too.. In fact, I actually improved my maths! I scored the hell lot better than other people who could have easily beaten me. I'm somehow proud of myself. Yeh, I'm easily satisfied XDD.
Anyway, I totally flunked my bio; by an incredible score of 6.5/30. Well, nothing much to explain about, but lucky me, my science gt 67/100 because I scored first in the phy+chem paper.
I repeat. I SCORED FIRST. YAYYYYYYY. XDDD It was kinda surprising actually. Since I didn't study for anything at all and got 60.5/70. Yup, god loves me XD.
Anyway, my geography scored okay, which is around 60+. The typical okay score. Nah, It didn't mattered anyway. I got 85 for my art, which isn't really surprising, but I was happy that i've beaten an arrogrant girl and scored over 80. I didn't wanted to be the first, so somehow, I got one mark lower than the first one XD. Lucky me, or my art will turn into a display picture in art room, which will get thrown away years later. WAHAHAHA.
Anyway, I can't wait to get my literature and english back. Chinese and history is slightly frightening but the worse had already been over [math].

AHH.. good times XDDD~~~

Since my blog seems really old and dull, i'm gonna lighten it up by using my baby photos, since the recent ones are stuck in my phone, and my phone just refuses to connect to the computer T_T. Where did I get my photos from? Well there was a music project that required some of our baby photos.. So lets don't waste it XD. Notice how my sister tortures me. By the way in most of the photos, I'm the baby, or at least , the smaller of the two.

I went to the cinema's today, after the last exam of the year !!! CHEERS! Although there's still the art test, but at least, I can relax. Well, exam for my classmates are : stress + pressure = exams = graduation. For me its : Slacking + the fun of watching other people's stress + the pressuring atmosphere of the examination hall [ which I enjoy] = exams = HOLIDAYS
LOL. yup. I'm the perfect slacker in the universe!
Anyway, that's not the point here. I went to the cinema with my mum, sis, and sis's bf. We watched " painted skin" , the new demon show, which is like... pretty stupid. 'cause there isn't really a plot, but it's still quite good. Go watch it bahs. ANYWAYS. That's not the point either. The point is..
I SAW A GUY THAT LOOKED LIKE Z!!!! lol. I bet you don't know who Z is. ~.~ Well, since I haven't mentioned about it. Anyway, Gladys will know, right, Gladys? lol youtiao number 2. That guy's back image is around 87% of similarity when compared with Z. He [ that guy] , even wore a dark blue shirt, which Z has as well! Even their height is similar. When I first saw him, I thought he was Z , and I was like OMG. hahas. He's eyes and facial features are quite similar with Z as well..
But his teeth is kinda big, not small and neat like Z's hahas. I've got a major crush on him. Did I mention I think I'm beginning to like guys younger than me? that is, I think. I'm not sure since I still think some guys older than me are cool. Well, I've always liked guys that are older then me by one year. Which is 15, for this year. Well, I still like them now but recently, this year, I'm beginning to like 14 year old's, which is my age. Then there has been one occasion of me liking a 13 year old, well, I just think he's cool, not really a crush or smth. Then.... *sigh* do I really need to continue? Anyway I miss Z, BIG TIME. [ which means a lot, just in case you don't understand] haiz, I hope he'll go tomorrow.

yup. Didn't update for quite long.Cannot blame me arhs.. My mum took my whole computer away. As in, she just took the screen =.= because we quarrel, AND obviously she'll win. Yup, today's maths paper one was SUPER difficult. 6 questions incomplete... OUT of eleven questions. DIE LIAO. I'm so gonna fail this. Hope paper two on friday easier bahs.. But science was kinda easy. Except bio, which I didn't study [ i didn't study anything actually.. ] and 10 marks flew right infront of my eyes. WAHAHA. When I told my classmate behind me, she was like " SERIOUS? PEIZHEN, WHY ARE YOU SO HAPPY THAT U LOST 10 MARKS?" then i was like smiling, " i've got no idea. HAHAHA." lol btw this is my sis's laptop, so cannot use very long. Cya aliens who read this earthling article. [ well I know its just gladys reading this LOL]
:D

Shameful. What have I done again? Nothing! But why, why do I have to be their topic of chat? Laughing so loudly doing class, like I didn't existed ; calling my name out so loudly to make sure I heard it. What have I done again? I DID NOTHING WRONG! I didn't even talk to them at all! In case they didn't know, I'm not that dumb not to have noticed those signs! I know they hate me, and I hate them too, but I always try my best not to do anything that might offend them. And I help them a lot! But why do they have to use me as a topic of joke? Laugh and then look at me, then laugh again. Do you guys even have a conscious? Won't you get guilty? How would you feel if I treated the same way to you? WTF. I hereby announce I seriously hate the stupid gang especially SILI THE GANG HEAD [ SLUTTEST of them all ] , MABEL [ 2nd SLUTTEST] , OLIVIA [ THE BIG MEANIE WITH NO HEART] and SITI NUR AFINI [ THE ONE WHO GIVE ME ALL THE FREAKING LOOKS].
Isn't it enough already? What made me even more angry is that NUR AIN, she laughed with them.. more like, i've given up already, on the thought of having friends. I don't care if anyone of them sees this. They can spread to the whole wide world but I just don't freaking care. Come on, OPEN YOUR EYES WIDE, AND SEE HOW MUCH I ACTUALLY HATE YOU GUYS DESPITE MY SMILES IN FRONT OF YOU. Damn you bitchy sluts. I NEVER used bitch, or slut, to anyone except you guys, Thats because you're really one. This is one battle I would hate to lose, so I would not cry. I'll bite my lips through this freaking 4 years [ hopefully just the end of this yr].
WHO NEEDS FRIENDS. ESPECIALLY GOOD FRIENDS LIKE YOU GUYS. I'M NOT WORTHY ENOUGH. [ since im not a bitch]. Talking about them, I've got a piece of goody news. Sili, has got a freakin huge army of PIMPLES invading her. I know it's bad to laugh at ppl's misfortunes, but this, I just can't stop wanting to laugh. The army made her originally disgusting face, even more disgusting. woots, i've totally scored on this one. I hate mabel. Especially her eyes when she laughed at me today. I wonder why guys go craving over her. She's not even pretty, and has an eye that is like , if she doesn't wear specs it'll be cock-eyed. LOL. She's a flirt, and her only "friends" are from [ apart frm the sch grp] maple, since she's really too ugly to make real friends. Her personality isn't like the best you would want in a friend. And she's like so fake, especially infront of GUYS. Omg, I wanna puke. And the way she acts cute by sticking her butt out.... arhh, horrible, the way she comes to school everyday saying " eh I met another new guy [frm maple , in rl life] today." One of her "admirers" even told me he likes her because she was NIIICEEE.
Hello? NICE? She's got evil intentions written all over her sickening face, for godness sake. How can she be nice? She's just purely desperate. [ahh, with her cam toy just infront of me, my inner devil yearns so much to see it get destroyed. It's ugly anyway, putting it there is like having a thorn in your eye.] Oh, and Mabel cropped my picture away from "OUR" group photo. How NICE EHHH. I'm never part of their grp anyway, I just somehow got involved, not like I wanted to. Even if they beg me, I'll never ever join. Oh, and mabel purposely put the photo as her hp's background image, SO I'LL SEE. Thats for being so considerate, goody-two-shoes, I've got a super perfect view of it. Funny how my indifferent heart still hurts when I mentioned it.
Never had I known that someday i'll be a topic for joke, or rather, for THEIR joke.

Anyway, know you know i'm no ANGEL, no DEVIL either. But i'm not a white devil, And i'm proud being a certified black angel.