in my own nightmare
Pei Zhen.
15 years old.
Born on 17th June 1994.
Pretty good in poetry.
Never good with people.
Follow your heart.
Follow the heart that loves me and doesn't want to leave me.
If your heart has ever hesitated,
your heart has ever fluttered for me,
and wondered if this was the right thing to do....
Follow your heart.
Not your brain.
And promise you will reconsider again.
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If you want me back its easy. Just tell me to stay.
Don't go my dear. Please don't leave me.
So yea, been busy with...
okay whatever. I just didn't feel like blogging okay. anyway this is probably the longest lasting blog of mine. I seriously ought to be studying now but i'm so tired. Haiz.
So here's the interesting thing. I thought I was the only problematic girl in the world. That people who love me are damned to suffer. But I realise... not. So i've got the major mood swings, overeacting instincts and likes to worry, doubt and get jealous easily. But who doesn't? If you love the person you love, you will act the same way!
Well at least, I found out geminis react this way. It's not my fault I act this way.. It's not my fault I have split personalities. But you have to know, that is what makes me interesting and unpredictable. Your life has never had a dull moment with me right?
"I’m not the best person to fall in love with. I get jealous easily, I have a lot of insecurities, I overanalyze, I push you to the edge, I get hurt when I’m not supposed to, I always put up unecessary fights.. But regardless of that, you have to know you still have reasons to hold on. You must know that you are cherished, treasured, and always thought of every minute of everyday. That you are the most important person to someone who may not be that special, but you thought otherwise. I may not be the best, but I will make up for it by loving you more than anyone can and ever will. Thank you for staying."
-unknown
I need you here. Right here with me. When you're around the world seemed like a better place to live in. I didn't wanted to die. I wanted to study hard for you.. for our future. I wanted to make you the happiest man in the whole wide world. I wanted you to look back in our life when we're old and say , " hey dear, thanks for everything. I was glad I chose you."
No couple has no problems. We are the same as everyone else. Because nobody is perfect. I'm not perfect and you're not perfect. You should give us time to sort it out.. give us time to learn and accept each other. In fact, if you look close enough, we have more similarities than differences! If we don't match, then a lot of couples in this world are worse matches!
"Not because he was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together."
We can be like that too..
I love you more than I can say and ever explain.
If you love me don't let me go. Because you can't be sure you can love someone else as much again. Does it occur to you that I might be the only person you truly love, and that if you let go you might lose me... forever? I might never return again. never.
I want to recapture what we used to have.
How can I do that... when you're no longer here?
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