How can anyone hate baseball? It totally rules.

I was totally wipe-out by the two exams. Feeling VERY blank now. Which means empty, kinda. I realised I don't have any childhood recently, when I see the show fighting spiders.

Isn't it fun to run around, getting chased by people and chasing back, exploring places that you've never seen before, get freaked out by ghosts and having a good laugh after that? I really wanna try climbing trees, it looks like great fun. I think its illegal to climb trees in Singapore... *sighs*

I wanna have some fun. I wanna explore caves and run out screaming because there are lots of bats around. I wanna sell weird stuff like spiders. I wanna skip school. Do you think I like playing in front of computers every single day? NO. I DON'T.

I only play because there's nothing better to do... And i've practically played every game available. I'm bored of all those stupid games already. I want life with surprises everyday, I wanna have an adventure... I want to invent stuff that has no use at all, and roll in the mud, beat some people up, and throw insects at people. I just want to run around everyday and have fun. I want to have a group of real friends, probably guys, since girls are scared of EVERYTHING. I wanna scold vulgarities, like its nobody's business. I wanna be rude, I wanna be late. I want to have confidence and stand up for myself. I don't wanna be A COWARD.

BUT NO, my life now is totally and absolutely different.

I don't talk much, I can laugh and smile, but it doesn't reach my eyes. I play computer everyday, more like, I just on the computer and randomly click stuff until the day is over. I get stuck in school for 6 hours a day, not counting transportation time. I don't have a lot of friends, and I don't go out. I can't run around, because its uncool [ hello, i'm 15 already] , I think people who scream are stupid. More like I can't scream EVEN if I tried.

I have girl friends, because if you have too much guy friends, people will say you are a flirt. [ yeah, wtf, most girls suck ] If you invent something that has no use, people will say that you are dumb, so I always try not to do things that are dumb. I don't like to touch people and I don't like them to touch me, so obviously I can't beat them up.

I hate PE practically because I don't have the guts to play anything. [ even though I badly want to ] I obviously can't climb trees but i'm quite good with climbing playground stuff. [ but i'm currently over-aged to play anything ]. Even when I'm bullied, I do nothing. [ More like I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT.]

I'm a freaking introvert and I hate it. I'm bored with everything in my life. I can't be rude, i'm always on time, never been late for school, never been to detention [ i know, i can't believe it either ], and yeah, i'm a coward.

In summary, I'm totally different on the outside and the inside. [ gemini <3]> i hate it. i wanna be