We walked past each other like complete strangers.. Werent you the one that wanted to be friends badly? ...now you dont even wanna look at me.. Pain..

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sorry i lied. 

but i can only love you for so long..

 

 

i wanna be your friend too.

maybe not your best friend but.. a good one?

 

sorry..

please don't be cold to me anymore..

i can only love you for so long..

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and after I give you the present sealed with love.."

i wanted to tell you..

that I want you to remember this moment...

i will look into your eyes deeply and ask you to close your eyes..

and I will whisper,

 

beebee, ...... byebye.

 

 

and when you open your eyes,

i'll vanish entirely.

 

 

 

this time for sure... i can be the cool person i keep trying to be..

I really wish I could let go of you too. I wish I could be strong. I wish I could stop harrassing you..

that time for sure..

I will be.

 

If you could see this, can you prepare yourself?

As in.. can you prepare to tell me? I really really wanna hear you say all those nice stuff again.. I really really need to hear them again.. I really wanna feel like I matter..

 

Will you miss me? When im really gone?

 

I wont force you to say that you love me, that you really missed me this nearly 2 weeks, that you wanted to tell me and msg me but you didnt.. that you think about me, that you care about me, that I mean so much to you. that you couldnt bear for me to go but you have to. that it is painful for you too..

I wont force you.. but I really wish to hear it.. I really really do...
Please don't force yourself if you cant..

Because I like the truthful you :') My honest snail dino :))

 

Because I really love you. Thats why im making all this fuss..., because... only by doing these my heart will really seal.. and by doing what I really really wanna do and say to you, I will really really give you up.

I love you thats why Im trying my best to let you go.. so please, don't ever say that im just doing what I want.. because what i want is probably harrass you forever..

I don't want that... thats why I'm doing all these things so that I can let go...

Its like suicide. I might seem like im doing all these for myself.. but no.. i'm doing it for you. I don't want to harrass you and hurt you anymore. Because I will. Look at me now. I can't survive a day without msging you. So now by doing all these its like attempting suicide..

Do you understand why I have to do it now? Idk I can't explain but.. ya.. it was never intended the way you thought.. you assumed wrongly too..

wow btw when i say "Idk I can't explain but.. ya." I sound like you! hahah!

I wish you could hold me in your arms and tell me all the sweet stuff you have once said.. that will be the final and best dream.. or even just a "bee, i will never be able to forget you" will be enough.. atakai... :) (blissful smile)

Hold me. Till the sun sets and we part our separate ways, with only our footsteps to prove that we were once there. Along with the smiles and tears we shed along the way..

I love you. more than i can ever say.. more than i can ever show.. more than anything else. i love you so much that i'm willing to risk myself, to let you enjoy the happiness you deserve. i'm stupid, but proud to be :) at least, i loved someone so much more than i imagined i could. and he too, did loved me more than he ever did.

baby, hold me cuz before you notice, i'll be gone without a trace.

Please, take my love away. Treasure them. I think you will find them quite useful along the painful thorns of life..

 

and after I give you the present sealed with love.."

i wanted to tell you..

that I want you to remember this moment...

i will look into your eyes deeply and ask you to close your eyes..

and I will whisper,

 

beebee, ...... byebye.

 

 

and when you open your eyes,

i'll vanish entirely.

 

Because, this time.. for sure.

It'll be the last.

Ti Amo..

 

 

 

 

 

 

Until we meet again,
Adios.

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What am i supposed to say when the best part of me is always you.

 

Wanna know something?

Loving you is the Second Best thing I ever did..

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Because..

Finding you is the First. :)

 

Eunice told me today that actually a lot of people told her that you and me look compatible with each other. Like we got the couple look and we look very sweet together..  She say she thought that way too and still doesnt get why we have to break up, it makes no sense at all..

yea, idk why either...

why..?

 

I miss you.. didn't msg you much today.. I miss you so much...
do you miss me too? I feel terrible, with wr with everything. I can't do anything.. I fail in everything... Love family school.. :(

Are you worried about me slightly?

"People always think that when you sleep together, there’s always something that is happening in between the sheets and the bed. But let me tell you, It’s not always like that. The feeling of actually hugging each other until you fall asleep, the warmth of each other’s breath, and the total happiness in the morning when you wake up right beside them. Everything may sound so good to be true, but sometimes it takes a lot of responsibility and love to be able to be as wholesome as possible. Sleeping with your special someone is one of the most heartwarming experiences you’ll ever have. No nothing, simply hugging and smiling yourself to sleep."

What happened bee.. :( I love you.... you used to love me so much too.. so much...
just what is love? isnt it supposed to be simple? I think about you all the time, i wonder what you do, i miss you etc? ... :'( today is really an awful day for me.. I ran away from the classroom and hid in one corner and cried.......

then i called you...

 

 

 

 

Something to let you smile :)

Its so hard to pretend I dont care because I think about you 24/7...
I ate utah today and I wanted to bring it to you so much :((
I miss buying and sharing food with you and seeing your happy face.. Everyone says we look so sweet together...

I really miss you... can you tell me you do too? ..

 

 

This dinosaur is nearly extinct.. gonna disappear from your world soon.. after giving you the presents..

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