I'm lost
in my own nightmare







Date: Friday, December 19, 2008
Time: 2:55 PM
Seal of Satan.

It's raining here.
Drip, drop.
Goes the rain.
Don't ignore my pain.
It's harsh,
out here in the rain, alone.
I'm cold.
The tall buildings rip the sky into halves.
Which separates you, from me.

Ever light my heart,
whispers are crawling.
To seem as if the future wides,
amidst the darkness, shadows fly.

Paradise has a dark side.
Some, crave for that single glimpse of darkness.
" I've come to bring you home."


Date:
Time: 1:18 PM
Haunted House ll

Back from chalet. Back to update. Back from fever. Back to writing.



Haunted House ll
[wasn't scary, until you're alone.]

It wasn't the haunted house that scared me.
It wasn't the horror.
It wasn't the gore.
It wasn't the creatures.
It wasn't the monsters.
It wasn't the skeletons.
It wasn't the screams.
It wasn't the creeping music.
It wasn't the mechanical movements.
It wasn't the shadows lurking.
It wasn't the evil aura.
It wasn't having to walk all those..

It was the darkness.
Turning back and realising that no one is there,
Silence. Emptiness. Defenceless. Pitch darkness.
It felt like it could swallow me whole, and I could never ever get out.
And I might not even notice the fact that I'm sinking. Into a bottomless pit.
Darkness never felt this way before...
UNTIL YOU'RE ALONE.

I tried to turn back, but my leg won't budge.
I tried to call for help, but my voice won't reach out.
I tried to fight the fear, but I couldn't.
I tried to conceal it, but I failed.

It wasn't the haunted house that scared me.
It was the overwhelming darkness.
It was my fear of it, that scared me.
I wasn't supposed to be scared, but I did.
I was supposed to be brave, but I cried.
I thought I understood darkness, and that day,
it proved me wrong.