i think..
i've fallen in love, again.
and its someone stupid, again.
someone who'll never like me back, again.

they all say its better to have loved and lost, than not loved at all...
i say if i could, i rather not have this thing called affection/love/like/whatever at all...

but i cant do anything about it.
just in self-denial that i do not like him at all.

yup. i dont like him at all.



if you're going to come and not come;
i rather you not come at all.
fool.
i mean me.

PLEASE let me pass my a maths! PLEASE T_T
I'd never tried so hard to pass my whole life T_T

im so loving one piece's song.
replayed for like... 100 times? hahas.

This is the english version below, though it's sang in jap :
I
'll keep believing in the future, not caring if anyone laughs at me
The passion running within you makes you shine
It's too dazzling, but I want to keep watching you
Somehow, sensing those aesthetics makes me really really stuck on you

Chasing, chasing after the one in my dreams
That is like no one else
With a feeling that burns like it's kindling the dawn
I don't know yet what the consequences will be
Instead of these boring times, it's gotta be dramatic
Until we achieve that, believe in wonderland!

Under casual rules, we've avoided a mountain of problems
But because of your pride, you can't turn back down this road
On your weak nights when troubles keep coming
I will hold you tight, I wanna wanna be with you

Holding on, we keep holding on
To a dream that no one else can see
Because I'm with you, we have such hot feelings
We don't really need consistency
Instead of a mundane routine,
Run towards paradise and believe in wonderland!

Chasing, chasing after the one in my dreams
That is like no one else
With a feeling that burns like it's kindling the dawn
I don't know yet what the consequences will be
Instead of these boring times, it's gotta be dramatic
Until we achieve that, believe in wonderland!

Trying to fix my ear piece so I could play it in my phone~~

The little puppet walked as fast as she could.
After she went home she opened the closet door and stared at the mirror.
She looked at herself,
and she started crying.
Crying and crying, as she cuddled in a corner.
But she was still crying.
And she cried until her body turned icy; until her head hurts like crazy; until her eyes turned sore.

She had no idea what was wrong, all she knows is that she's weak.
But it was not their fault. All they talked about and laughed about might be the truth.
It was her own fault.
She was too ugly.
That's why her new hairstyle made her look funny,
because she was ugly.

She thought she'll look better with the haircut, because her family said her eyes are pretty.
Her cousin thought the haircut was cute. Her mum thought it was nice.
And she went out with confidence, but came back with shame.
Good words are all lies.

She never thought she was pretty, but she thought she was 'okay'.
But now she knows she's ugly. And it all made sense.
Because only ugly people get laughed at.
Because only ugly people get bullied.
Because only ugly people have no one to love.
Because beautiful people are loved.
Because beautiful people have nice friends.
Because beautiful people can smile brightly.
Because beautiful people get to be bullies.
Because beautiful people don't have to care what others feel.
Because beautiful people are right, and ugly people are wrong.
Because ugly people look ugly.

Its enough for her little puppet heart. '
To think she even had a good dream this morning. Which was super rare.
But they are all lies.

Kinda interesting how a cool person sounds really cool when calling your name for the first time @.@

Like those people beside you always call your name so you don't feel any different, but when someone who normally don't talk to you calls your name, it feels really interesting.

I'll be like , " OMG DID HE JUST CALL ME " lol. You dont have to like the person to feel funny o.o, its just really weird ~

Maybe it felt like I was accepted as an individual or smth, like 'I EXIST'! LOL. Or like i'm recognized.

What a nice feeling, haha.
Kinda feels that i'm finally making friends. Even though i'm like already sec 3...

Finally eng and chi paper over. I am like so stressed i dunno why. And I finally studied chinese; I know like 30+ words, BUT ONLY 2 COME OUT. WTH.
TT my life is sad.

But at least I was saved by god a minute before the paper was collected. Haha hard to explain here but I was like basically praying and the word appeared in my eyes. LITERALLY APPEARED ON THE PAPER. AND I was like clinching my fist and 'YES!'. lol lol


OH AND IMMA SO INTO ONE PIECE. HAHA RENGE *sticks out tongue* :p

OH OH, AND IM VERY ADDICTED TO A MANGA, CAUSE THE GUY IS DRAWN SO BEAUTIFULLY, ITS BASICALLY A PIECE OF ART! * Sparkling eyes* I CANT TAKE MY EYES OFF HIM! T-T