I hate this world.
I hate this world.
I hate this world.
I hate being a kid.

" kids can't talk while adults are talking "
" wait until you grow up "
" you don't understand, you're just a kid "
" don't be a crybaby any more "
" oh man, kids are so weak "
" what do you know? you're just a kid "

- I've had enough of all those nonsense.
ENOUGH. ITS ENOUGH.

I'm always at fault, i'm NEVER ever correct.
Why? Because i'm a kid.
" I can never be wrong, because i'm an adult. "
" You have to listen to what I say "
" Don't talk back! I'm ALWAYS correct! "

- even if they realised they're wrong, all they say is
" ... I DID THAT BECAUSE OF YOU!"
" I'm TRYING to do WHAT'S BEST FOR YOU "
" It's your fault that I'm doing that! "

yea yea yeah, its allll my fault. adults will never be wrong. kids will never be right.
I JUST ABOUT GOT ENOUGH OF THIS.

Every single day I got scolded. And she says its because of me.
" You started it "
" What?! You were the one who started scolding me! "
" Why do you have to make my life like this? "
" You think I'm happy with my life? You think I want this? I'm going crazy too! "
" I do everything for you "
" yah yah, I NEVER did anything for you; I never helped in this household AT ALL"
" You're the one with the bad temper "
" yah yah, You have a GREAT temper. OH i'm so sorry, it's ALL MY FAULT "
" If you don't like me, find another mother! I'm not like your friend's mothers, I'm not so nice "
" Did I force you to give birth to me? I'm your kid, you should be responsible!"
" I'm doing my best, and now I can see that it was all worthless. Have you done anything so great like i've done?
"And here I thought mother's love is supposed to be the greatest; that they would never ask anything in return. "



What, you think I don't want to be an enthusiastic kid like hermann and be happy everyday?
Have you ever thought what made me turn out this way?
Have you ever tried to find out how I am facing my life?
Have you tried trusting me FOR ONCE?
Have you ever believed in me?
- All you do is push me down.
- All you think is that i'm the worst kid ever
- All you think is how great you are, and how bad I am
- All you say is that, " i'm such a good person with such a good character, why did my kid turn out this way?"
- All you think is that I give you no "face"
You think I'm a loser.
You think I can't do anything.
You think I'm weak.
You think i'm untrustworthy.
And that when I say i'm going for atp, i'm actually out there somewhere playing with guys.
WTF.
You think i'm the only kid who swears. Considering I only swore ONCE in front of you.
You think I couldn't get any worse.
When you go for parent-teacher-meeting, and the teacher says, " Pei Zhen is a sweet-natured girl who hands in her homework on time; very quiet and obedient.", you doubt the teacher. ANd me.
Just because I don't like to do homework at home, you think I don't have any, and all I do is play the computer.
You want me to be more sociable, but just after a few sentences, you start screaming at me.

Please, I beg you.
Trust me.
Believe in me.
And love me.

I can't take it anymore.
It's enough.
I don't wanna cry every single day.
I can't never be happy again.

I didn't make myself turn out this way.
WHO made me this way?

OH I FORGOT. ITS ALL MY FAULT ISN'T IT?


hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate
Its enough Its enough Its enough Its enough
Not anymore Not anymore Not anymore

Things will never be the same again.

You make me doubt that I'm your child.