..mushi ka?

Now I even fear sleeping... 'Cause I used to dream of the fantasy, things that will never happen, stuffs that never existed, or the impossible. But now I dream of reality, everything, as if i'm not dreaming... Then when I wake up, I don't know whether its reality or dream anymore. I dreamt once that I woke up, but then my mum woke me up again.. And I was like... whats going on?

I thought its a one time thing, but i'm having ALL dreams that are so close to reality. My head's really messed up. Not to mention my eyes are getting blur all the time.

I hate cockroaches; insects.

Today they sprayed some repellent thingy downstairs and all the cockroaches climbed up in attempt to escape death. And my house is the highest, so they all came to my house. I was getting out of the room to get water and when I stepped out I see cockroaches EVERYWHERE. wtf. Here I'm avoiding one, then another one climbs out. I helped 3 escape by using newspaper, but that was only because they were close to the door, those other cockroaches that bothered me by climbing about and were not close to the door were killed. By me, obviously.

Hell, it terrified me. Not the killing, but the part were I had to clean up. I didn't kill them by smashing or wadever violence means, but I used some cleaning germs detergent sort of thing. Its watery, so I just squeezed the bottle on top of the cockroaches and drowned them [ or 'cause they have lots of germs so they died ]. But I can't leave them there so I took a paper spoon and scoop them up... Which was freaking terrifying cause I had to examine whether they are really dead or not. Then there was this HUGE cockroach that came running to me SO fast that I jumped to a chair, banged my leg and cried. I HAVE NO IDEA WHY I CRY BUT YEA.

Anyway, i'm still having goosebumps up till now. O:

One more day. And holidays lessons are over. HOORAY! WAN SUI! YADA!YOSHA! [lol]

.... I really should start studying..
well, play for one more week bah. HAHA.